Hey....
I'm back. Finally.... been bogged down by a lot of things.
First things first... I have left what I thought was haven and now residing in hopefully a true, or close to, haven.
Really... try and imagine someone whom you had placed so much faith in, whom you have thrown so much away for, had let you down. A lot. I was horribly mistaken.
That taught me to NEVER expect someone to be who you want him/her to be. Because he/she can jolly well turn out completely what you DON'T want him/her to be...
Do not expect details, for I will not be revealing it. Unless I wish to. I rather forget them, because the facts are painful... and best left forgotten.
I am not kidding when I said I am shagging my ass off working. I am not complaining, but I can't help thinking that I should be like other teenagers out there.... having fun, hanging out, shopping... I have barely enough money for myself... let alone for others... and yet...
It's all right. I will do what I have done for years... taking a thing, a day, a step at a time. Why think far when it will only give you stress now?
Haha, anyway... projects done. Finally. Phew. Now got to find the DISCIPLINE to revise my modules for my exams which are coming NEXT WEEK. Geez. If only... huh?
And tomorrow is Grad Nite! Yes! I can wear my newly-bought stuff and then well... yeah.... (smirks)
And I got a big trouble ahead.... I can't believe I have fallen for a colleague! A really cool, handsome and (blushes) ehem, colleague. Damn. Right now I am grinning away like an idiot just thinking about him. Oh man, boy am I thoroughly smitten. His smiles, grins, anything... melts my heart and I can't just stop grinning away around him. I am not nuts, just.... smitten. Haha.
Then there is a silly rumor about a guy and me... I mean.... what the hell? I think the person got me with the wrong person.... Haha! So amusing... and last night, I did runners with them both! You can imagine how I feel. Haha! Oh my god.
Okay... leaving now. Will gush about him later. See you around...
Warmest regards
Me
‘Well, no need to brood on what tomorrow may bring. For one thing, tomorrow will be certain to bring worse than today, for many days to come. And there is nothing more that I can do to help it. The board is set, and the pieces are moving."
Gandalf, The Palantír, TTT